Written by Mathew Naismith
This post is
going to be a little humbling to me; here I was trying to stay as disconnected
as possible without being totally disconnected from my inner self so that I could
experience human existence in its rawest form but ended up neglecting my
connectedness too much. In doing this I inadvertently became too disconnected
thus I started ignoring signs & feelings especially in regards to others.
It’s funny
about things that seem negative at times they can always, in my view, have a
positive effect if one is willing to see it as I will explain further.
Insensitive
Traits: As mentioned in my last post my wife & I experienced a non-violent
home invasion recently which has brought out a lot more stories of others going
through similar experiences, some of them where utterly terrifying to the
victim which incurred a certain amount of long term psychological distress. I was myself on the wrong side of the tracks
when I was in my late teens at one stage, nothing hurtful just inappropriate
luckily enough this didn’t include home invasion, coupled with working in the
welfare arena twice over by my 49 yrs the darker side of life didn’t seem as
terrifying as in how most people acted to it until our own home invasion. It wasn’t just experiencing this for ourselves
first hand that made me realise I was being insensitive but the horrifying
stories that were being told to us afterword’s about what other victims suffered
& were still suffering long after the home
invasion took place. There are draw backs in disconnecting.
Don’t get me
wrong I wasn’t that insensitive that I didn’t feel remorse or compassion for
these victims in the past in actual fact I was very supportive but I lacked the
understanding of people who haven’t experienced the darker side of life or
didn’t want to experience such a said life in anyway but was forced too.
Before I go
on I better explain a little more about realties of time & space & no
time & space for those who don’t know as it has a lot of relevance
here. Realties of time & space are
realities that are like ours, they have a past & future however were I
think we have evolved from or were created from was a reality of no time &
space therefore everything is happening within the now, it’s as if everything
has already occurred & is in blue print for us to see & experience at
any given moment in a reality of time & space.
Realties of
time & space give us opposites & at times extreme opposites like with
day & night, positive & negative, bad & good, darker & lighter,
yin & yang within everything of time & space including boy & girl,
male & female believe it or not., the question here is does everyone have
to or even want to experience being a male & a female in one life, so why
does anyone need to or want to experience both sides of the light & dark
sides of life? To have an understanding of both polarities can be quite
beneficial but is it a must or did we come here in the first place to
experience such things? Some of us did
some of us didn’t or even had too to make a better existence for us all &
ourselves.
My
insensitivity to these people who no longer or want to in the first place
experience such phenomena is quite noticeable, I was catering for those who
wanted to or want to experience such things in life which comes down to living
within a reality of time & space however these people who want to have
little to do with the darker side of life shouldn’t prejudge or condemn those
who accept the full extent of experiences in a reality of time & space
because that is what these realties are all about. So is it wrong to want to
just accept & live a life without the darker side of life thus giving us
far less extremes? No of course not but
we must accept that we still live in a reality of time & space which give
us apposing polarities at the time.
Living within
the Shadow: The funniest thing is the people who live their life in the shadow
of darkness like a druggy &/or home invader for instance are actually
living within this darken reality or mode of thought because they don’t want to
experience terror, they feel fear but not the same fear as their victims.
Living within the shadow of darkness actually lessons the effects of terror
because it’s a part of you, it’s your reality.
If we were all a part of this reality we wouldn’t feel as terrified
because we would have an understanding of this existing reality first hand but
if you are living or tying to live within the lighter side of this reality the
terror of such opposite will affect you a lot more than someone on the darker
side of life. Coming from knowing &
existing in both polarities I didn’t quite humanly understand what the people
who have only lived in the lighter side of life were actually going through,
they didn’t want to understand the other side of the coin or polarity nor do
they have to or should have too.
In actual
fact the people who have chosen to live within the shadow have far more fear within
them than those who live in the hue of light, to feel this much terror &
discomfort is too much for them so they have opted to dwell within the shadow
to lesson this discomfort, this makes anyone who wants to build or create a
reality of light within a reality of opposites quite courageous. So what about people like me who accept &
have lived within both realties/modes of thought, where do they go? Where they want or feel more comfortable with
or where they are needed. I know & understand, to a certain extent, of
living within the shadow of darkness from personal experience but mostly
through others, this has given me an insight into life within a reality of time
& space of both polarities which isn’t that bad of a thing to have. Many
people in this reality have experienced this.
Reality of opposing
Polarities: So what are the people of the light trying to do? Reconnect
themselves with what created everything
in the first place, the reality of no time & space however the big question
here can we or should we change this reality of time & space into a replica
of our initial creative reality of no time or space? No one has a right to change this reality
into a different reality of no time & space completely for the main reason
people still want & use this reality the way it is however we can &
have to a certain extent became reconnected to our initial reality that created
us thus this has & can help us bring some of this reality back to this one
to change some of its attributes making it more harmonious & peaceful like
the creative core of the initial creative reality of no time & space but we
should never try to replicate it exactly nor can we I believe. The reality of
no time or space has no polarities or opposites as it’s perfectly balanced
within itself, if we could replicate this reality all polarities would become
non-existing including light so in trying to create or change this reality to
just light by replicating our initial creative reality wouldn’t work however
creating another reality of just light is possible which would make this
existing reality turn completely to the darker shades. We
need to remember no matter what we do we would still be living within a reality
of time & space so polarities still exist just in different realties
instead of one like we are living in now.
Living in
realties of different polarities isn’t easy as one is always trying to dominate
the other which we have seen right through human history however if we could
separate the light from the dark would this still be in a reality of time &
space? It would & the opposing
polarities within these realities would be somewhat more subtle remembering
they would only have one set mode of thought like darkness or light not both.
Realties of light & dark still have differences but they are not opposing differences
like with the different shades of light, they are a lot more subtle as they are
of the same polarity. Instead of having
two completely different polarities within one reality like this one which have
different shades of light & dark as well we would only have one polarity
not two to contend with. Mixing these two opposing polarities together in one
reality was obviously going to be chaotic nothing else which of course it was
& is.
We haven’t
got the right to change the core of this reality however we do have the right
to change it’s attributes & ourselves for a more balanced harmonious
existence, in actual fact if we changed various attributes that we want changed
we would be doing both the light & dark realties & polarities a
service, they would be both balanced within their own reality & mode of
thought. You would probably think that the people who are actually of the dark
not just living within the shade wouldn’t want to separate with the lighter
shades of life as this causes more chaos but they do because there is always a
threat that the light will swallow up or become completely dominant over the
dark side. The people living within shade will have to choose which way they
want to go, it comes down to souls choice.
The creation
of Time: The reality of no time or space is utterly blissful as it has no
opposing polarities but at the same time it is everything so if it’s of
everything it must be of opposing polarities as well? The core of creation which is this reality of
no time & space is the creator of everything but anything else outside the
core is of its own creation. Within the core there is no time or space
therefore no past or future & if there is no time or future we have no
differences in polarity only in realities of time & space does it seem we
have polarities but in actual fact we don’t. So does this mean everything of
time & space is an illusion? If we were living within the core yes but
where not as we are living within a reality of time & space itself which is
self-creative but only within realties of time & space. You can’t have time
creating no time but you can have no time creating time also you can’t live
within the core as an individual which also includes souls so this means only
in soul/physical form can these realities of time exist but the paradox is if
it vibrates it exists. Time & space only exist because we do or more to the
point our souls as only through the soul can time & space exist, the
creative core can only consciously exist through us, we are the cores
consciousness, now that’s special.
How can no
time create time when there is no time to create within the core? The creative core itself is of no time but to
experience itself & it’s knowing it created souls which desired physical
realities to further its experiences of its knowing which inadvertently created
time, we or our souls created time directly but the creative core created it
indirectly through consciousness expanding into physical realities of time
& space through souls. If the creative core wasn’t conscious how did it
know of its knowing to create souls? Every intelligent living thing has instinct,
could you imagine being the creative core & all of a sudden realising instinctively
that everything that you know exists is you, of course you’re going to want to instinctively
experience yourself & the best way to do this was obviously through souls
which are parts of the creative core itself.
So in all what
the people of the light want to do is create another reality of just light
which will take the understanding of the creative core & its influences
which will help us create this newer reality, the reality of dark will just be
created through this separation process. We just don’t need to become reconnected with
the creative core but to understand what it is to create a better existence
& hopefully I have done that with my recent posts.
